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Someone asked me on Formspring,

"If you were to be married,
what songs will be played on your white occasion?"
So well, these are (according to me) some of the world's most uniquely-beautiful songs with very sweet lyrics I personally selected to be played over and over again during my wedding someday *blush*

TIP: Press the Play button to start playing the entire playlist :)


1. Your Love Means Everything -Coldplay
2. Eclipse (All Yours) -Metric
3. All the Love in the World -The Corrs
4. What Can I Do -The Corrs
5. How Deep is Your Love -The Bird and The Bee
6. Truly, Madly, Deeply -Savage Garden
7. I Knew I Loved You -Savage Garden
8. Flightless Bird, American Mouth -Iron & Wine
9. Kiss Me -Sixpence None the Richer
10. Breathe Your Name -Sixpence None the Richer
11. Don't Dream It's Over -Sixpence None the Richer
12. Two Is Better Than One -Boys Like Girls
13. Deep Love -Mandalay
14. The Way You Look Tonight -Michael Bublé
15. Dreams -Cranberries
16. Ode to My Family -Cranberries
17. You Have Stolen My Heart -Dashboard Confessional
18. Anyone Else But You -The Moldy Peaches
19. Honey and the Moon -Joseph Arthur
20. Love Song -311
21. Heaven -Do
22. A Thousand Miles -Vanessa Carlton
23. Close To You -Carpenters
24. If You're Not The One -Daniel Beddingfield
25. Lovin' You -Minnie Riperton
26. Don't Let Me Fall -Lenka
27. Beautiful Freak -Eels
28. Sweet Disposition -The Temper Trap
29. I Want You To Want Me -10 Things I Hate About You
(Added 3 songs - November 19, 2010)
30. Fireflies - Owl City
31. I Will Be Blessed - Lisa Ekdahl
32. Say Yes - Asha Puthli

So far I can only find these 29 songs for this 'My Wedding Songs' playlist. It could be updated later with new found songs, but it couldn't be less than this :)

About these songs, most of them really meant something to me. You know, there are some memorable moments you're spending while listening to a particular song.. I think that's what make it 'sticks' to the memory as far as you can remember.

Some of them are simply chosen because I couldn't help but fall in love with their hypnotizing melodies which get me weak in the knee.


ADDITION (November 19, 2010)
After listening to these songs for days, I couldn't help but wonder about how dreamy & romantic my wedding would be, someday!

Imagine: We will sit together, my husband and I -just the two of us, away from the crowds.
He will stroke my hair (I won't be hairsprayed so my hair won't be stiff & would be very stroke-able muahaha), tell me how beautiful I look and how lucky he is to be married to me (yes, yes, I love to be praised, especially by the love of my life lol).
I will try to avoid his eyes (cos I know it would be SUPER AWKWARD), but he will gently place his hand on my cheek, pull me closer to him, and kiss me on the lips (soft, supple, not too dry, definitely NOT TOO WET & no tongue!).

And then we will RUN AWAY from our own wedding, no cellphone etc., just to get away from the crowds and spend the night together filled with laughter and love! Hahahahhaha super irresponsible but I bet it would be fun that way!

Ok don't worry now, I've ordered myself to STOP day-dreaming until I meet my Mr. Right. Period.
*Listening back to the songs won't do any harm, though ;)*

Oh I also added 3 songs to the list, suggested by my sister & a friend of mine :D

Let's pretend it's early August since this post was meant to be published back on Aug 6-7 haha.
Kay here goes :)

Went to Benton Junction and Imperial Cakery at Times Bookstore that located next to Universitas Pelita Harapan for GOWIGASA photoshoot last Sunday :) This time we got A LOT to update, so we brought 2 guys with us to *ahem* help us with the carry-ons and stuff. Now say hello to the guys!


This is my baby bro Julius, he looks so cute here! I wonder often why he got this Heart Breaker title since he's in elementary school, but now when I look at him, I think he's kinda cute, and he's quite a gentleman too, so maybe that's why :b


And this is Elden looking so peaceful & innocent, sleeping while GUIDING BB after I told him to wake up & guide our belongings while we're snapping some pictures!! (Useless threat since he slept anyway. Only now with elle's BB around his palm.) Wah I totally become a sadism everytime he's around. Can't help it since he's so wimpy hahaha..

Here comes the dishes! I put a lot of sambal sauce in the Cream Corn Soup cos it was tasteless *peh*.

Rice something I dunno…, Corn Soup with Extra Sambal, Beef Stroganof Spaghetti


*nom*


Refreshing Tea (very recommended! I ordered 2 out of greed since it was so.. refreshingly sweet) and a cup of Hot Chocolate.


Heavenly dessert: Hot Chocolate Melt with Vanila Ice Cream. Oh and that's my crooked thumb :D

We still have some f&b left on the next table, but they're kinda messed up already thanks to me and my bro, so we didn't take any pictures -_-

After photoshoot for KNITTED Series♥ was over, now it's time for ESSENCE♥ photoshoot! Loaded the car with foods from Pandan Bistro first though, it's a real pity we didn't take any pics :( Foods were incredibly delicious: Cumi Goreng Tepung, Tahu Kipas, Kerang Kepa Saos Tauco, Mie Goreng Jawa… Good gracious, it wasn't fashion photoshoot, ladies and gentlemen. It was FOODSHION photoshoot!! Both photoshoot went like this: Click! Nom nom, Click! Nom nom, Slurp, Click! Slurp, Click! And so on until it's over.

Another behind the scene pic. A cool, silhouette-tic one with pretty uncool pose:

I swear I wasn't nose-picking in this pic!

Loving the results:




And here's my fave item as well :D


Kay time for cleaning up:

Hi, Yansen! So cheerful aye, my sister really taught him well at smiling for the camera LOL.


*brush brush*


Ok that's all. Yeah we girls got nothing to do with the chores hahahahaha *boys shaking heads, girls nodding in agreement*

And here's my favorite pic of the day:
TADA


Ok to seize all confusions, have you guys by any chance read Benny & Mice? If yes, you should probably know a character called 'Nenek Pengajian'. Here's her pic


Ain't they look alike?? HAHAHHAHAHA
I realized that the moment I saw her (back in Imperial Cakery)!! Told my sis "Gotta take a pic, gotta take a pic!!! Quick, pretend you wanna take my pic, and take her pic instead!"
LOL

Here's another pic of her with (probably) her grandchildren. Ooh, ain't she precious♥?


Ok that's all folks. Will blog later about our holiday trip, thank you :D

Photo courtesy of Elleyamada.

UPDATE -Monday, 15 Nov 2010
Sorry for the "Will blog later about our holiday trip" delay ><
I've promised myself though, that I WILL post it eventually since there are these LOADS of pics screaming "POST ME, POST ME!!" in my hardisk right now haha.. *self-ciayo*

Junior high & high school remind me of those pretentious, self-righteous people asking me to go to some religious places with them and REPENT.

There was this Student's Counselor (I think that's the title they're giving him) who invited me every week to pray together with him in a private classroom. He'd tune the music on (wth) and started to pray..

"Dear Lord, (bla bla bla)" << I couldn't help to remember cos the minute the music started playing, I immediately relaxed & fell asleep.

At first, although his classes were pointless & super boring, at least he gave me nice nap times between my real classes. And yes, the other teachers seem to be really pissed on me they even let me skip their classes to 'consult my problems', pray & 'repent' with this Student's Counselor.

But then, the very same man, who 'prayed' for me and put relaxing music that put me to sleep, HE GOSSIPED ABOUT ME & MY FAKE PROBLEMS (Yeah I'm 100% sure it was him because I told him, and him alone about these fake problems in order to make him stop barging into my private life, and gain the wrong information instead hahaha.)

For starter, He'd ask me something like, "How's your parents doing?", "What's it like to be in your home?". And then it got worse, "Do you smoke?", "Do you do drugs??", "Have you been going to Satanic church???" WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

So at first I'd just keep saying 'Yeah right', or rolling my eyes eternally for these unbelievably stupid questions he was asking me. But then I thought it would be fun to fool him with these fake stories called 'My Brutal Life'. So I told him things like, "Yeah my parents are going to divorce. They fought all the time so I ran away from home and made friends with this motorcycle gang. They're so cool! They gave me drugs, alcohol, blaralablablablah."

Would you believe this story? I wouldn't. But he DID. And it would be nice if he'd just, "OMG that's horrible, let me pray for your lost soul, let me tune on the music...".

But he gossiped with other teachers instead (after 'praying' for me, of course.) and somehow these self-righteous teachers just leered at me cynically (they always did that, but that time they decided to add a special feature on their faces: a mocking grin.) and say things like, "No wonder she got that attitude. What a broken home she has!" loudly to each other every time I entered their room. 'Yeah right' & eye rolling happened again.

I didn't bother to correct them though, why should I? Wouldn't change anything anyway. But since I know this Student's Counselor is a big mouthed hypocrite, I'd just say nice things about the other teachers to him. I call this: Hidden-Ass-Kissing-Attempt. And guess what, it worked like charm. Those teachers were becoming nicer to me, I graduated, end of story.

Back to the Student's Counselor. My point is: We're all human after all. We talk about each other frequently, especially if it's bad news, because -whether you admit it or not- it's our human nature to feel superior (or a tiny bit excited to make it less cruel) when we see our life is better than someone else's.

But he's a Student's Counselor for God's sake!!! THIS IS HIS PROFESSION, his job is to: listen to his students' problems, make them feel better (maybe with those prayers and music all right) and most importantly: TO KEEP THEIR SECRET SHUT, am I right??

He doesn't even genuinely CARE about me. If he does, the most important thing he'd do after listening to such a horrible story about his student's life is to give me some life wisdom perhaps, or a sincere sympathy at the very least (hey, I could tell which one is sincere or not, and his was definitely not). And maybe later he could call my parents (separately perhaps, since I've told him they're in a big quarrel etc), ask them what was exactly going on, maybe pray & calm them down, offer some solutions perhaps.. NOT JUST PRETEND TO PRAY AND GOSSIPS AFTER. "Hands that help are holier than lips that pray" anyway.

Okay maybe if he really DID talk to my parents, I'd be in a big trouble since my parents knew nothing about that lol. But can you imagine if those were my real problems, how devastated I would feel? Feel so lucky I made the right decision to LIE and did not trust this man!

Now all this Student's Counselor did was pray to God, asking me to repent. Note that he's a soft spoken man who has this tidy, neat look. Hell if he wasn't married and have children as well, I thought he was gay (the femme one)! But from what I saw, he didn't reflect the goodness in his religion much. Except for the praying part, perhaps. I don't care if he spread it (the gossips) innocently, accidentally, or whatever, but I dare say: This Student's Counselor is an EPIC FAIL as a counselor and as a representative of his religion as well.

So before you put your God as your middle name, ask someone to pray, go to some religious places, surrender to some Gods and REPENT, please make sure you've done some self-reflection first. If you've done that and feel holy enough, then go ahead and save some lost souls. God speed!

Thrown Away Pity. Translate to Bahasa = Dibuang Sayang.
Ok here goes my thrown-away-pity pics from GOWIGASA photoshoots:
p.s: Click pics to go directly to the sold items. Don't worry, it'll open in a new tab ;)

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TADA!!!!!



Excuse my creepy bunny teeth.
>,,,<

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Most people have their own version of broken heart story. Some of them might be funny, sick, full of sadness or even full of anger. Whatever the theme is, most broken heart stories are filled with emotions. I have some of them too, but today I'm gonna share a melancholic version of mine. Enjoy :)

This may be a long ago story. But somehow tonight I feel so strongly about it.

I remember how hurt it was, right here in my chest.
It must hurt so bad, my eyes couldn't rest without tearing.
It must hurt so bad, my mouth couldn't close without gasping.


Pillow screams - Check.

Bitching around about him - Check.

Sticking '10 Things I Hate About You' notes everywhere - Check.


Nothing worked at the time. NOTHING.


By morning when I woke up, I rushed to check whether there's any missed calls or messages from him.

By day.. God. Daytime was the hardest.

I couldn't take my mind off him. All the jealousy felt really sickening when I imagine he's with someone else, knowing he's no longer mine. And I MUST hold my tears back. Pretended to be okay about all this.

Still checking on my cell pathetically.

I remember one day, I walked my way home from school and 'accidentally' reached his school's backyard (our schools only few blocks apart from each other). I peeked. There he was. He didn't know I was there. But it made my day just to see his face. For a few minutes.

By night before I went to bed, I'd secretly wish that 'This is not happening. Tomorrow everything will be back to normal again." Or at the very least, I prayed that I'd have sweet dreams about me and him still being together and all.



Pathetic, aye?



I managed to keep my strength through the whole time, though.
Kept telling myself below statements every time I felt the rush to call or text him:

"There's this BIG REASON why you're not with this guy anymore"

"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger"

or simply..

"YOU DESERVE BETTER"



And that's that.



Broken heart matter is truly a pain in the ass. But now, I feel really grateful I got the courage to make that decision at the time, be strong about it, and moved on.

Slowly but surely, time and logic cured my heart. It has been broken and repaired several times by now, but man! How each memory makes me feel alive! *took a deep, relieving breath*

I kept every one of them, every bitter-sweet of them in my memory box.
Sometimes I open it, like today.. The songs, the churning stomachs, the first dates, the stolen kisses, to (finally) the goodbye tears.

It may be a long ago story.

It might no longer means anything by now.

But all I know that it was real at the time.. And damn it was beautiful :)