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1. I’m a very hygienic when it comes to my feet. I have six styles to wash them n i quit karate because sensei pushed me to run bare-footly.

2. People who are close to me should already know that i walk too fast, eat & bathe too slow. Oh, and that my cellphone doesn't sit next to me most of the time.

3. When i was in kindergarten, i smashed a boy who messed up with my sist.

4. I love kawaii lookin guys, but i won’t take one as a husband :b

5. I admire baby’s scent. Also cinnamon, coffee in the morning, detergent washed clothes and many other lovely scents :)

6. When my friends fell for westlife, blue, n many other boybands, i fell for coldplay, blink, n rhcp.

7. I had a big fight with my dad n ran away from home in 8th grade.

8. In 7th grade i pretend i couldn’t tie my own shoe laces because Gyro Gearloose (LangLingLung from Donald Duck series in indo) couldn’t do it eventho he’s a genius (I’m a freak i know). But a best friend of mine (K) kindly tied em for me, n i went home n cried.

9. I had a ballet course when i was 8 n i sucked.

10. I think i couldn’t love no one more than my mom n my sist. When i woke up in the morning n i couldn’t find them, usually i’d feel unwell.

11. in five groups of animal, i only like two of them; birds n mammals. The other three disgust me to the max.

12. I hate narrow minded n fanatic people n they hate me as well. That’s why i never got along with most teachers in indo.

13. I ate like a horse i became super fat that when my mum n sist came back from US in 96 they were so shocked to see me. I shrank back to normal when i had my first period in 99.

14. I realize that people are more appreciative to good looking people.

15. I always park my car to the nearest entrance. If i don’t get it, at least i've searched all over the place.

16. Online games were very addictive to me and warnet was my second home.

17. I tend to put myself in a competition. That’s why i love getting hi scores, ranks, n everything related to achievements.

18. I don’t have the nerve to call people and ask them out.

19. I’m a perfectionist hard worker

20. i hate white lamps for interior. That’s why i often feel uncomfortable in classrooms, hospitals, offices, n electronic stores.

21. Cone bra is something i would NEVER EVER wear.

22. I don’t like french fries, crackers, meatballs, white chocolates, kue lapis, bika ambon, whipped cream, mango, any kind of cheese (cheese cake is an exception of course *yum*)

23. My eyes don’t have any minus or plus (yet), n my teeth don’t have any cavities (yet).

24. i was tied to a chair by my kindergarten teacher either because i messed up with everyone’s watercolour painting or because i pulled a boy's hair til he fell on his back from the chair

25. I enjoy being in a small community n am pretty nervous among the crowd. Sometimes i can drive myself alone to watch movie, shopping, spend my time at the bookstore, or simply stay at home :)

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Holy Man VS Lost Soul

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Junior high & high school remind me of those pretentious, self-righteous people asking me to go to some religious places with them and REPENT.

There was this Student's Counselor (I think that's the title they're giving him) who invited me every week to pray together with him in a private classroom. He'd tune the music on (wth) and started to pray..

"Dear Lord, (bla bla bla)" << I couldn't help to remember cos the minute the music started playing, I immediately relaxed & fell asleep.

At first, although his classes were pointless & super boring, at least he gave me nice nap times between my real classes. And yes, the other teachers seem to be really pissed on me they even let me skip their classes to 'consult my problems', pray & 'repent' with this Student's Counselor.

But then, the very same man, who 'prayed' for me and put relaxing music that put me to sleep, HE GOSSIPED ABOUT ME & MY FAKE PROBLEMS (Yeah I'm 100% sure it was him because I told him, and him alone about these fake problems in order to make him stop barging into my private life, and gain the wrong information instead hahaha.)

For starter, He'd ask me something like, "How's your parents doing?", "What's it like to be in your home?". And then it got worse, "Do you smoke?", "Do you do drugs??", "Have you been going to Satanic church???" WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

So at first I'd just keep saying 'Yeah right', or rolling my eyes eternally for these unbelievably stupid questions he was asking me. But then I thought it would be fun to fool him with these fake stories called 'My Brutal Life'. So I told him things like, "Yeah my parents are going to divorce. They fought all the time so I ran away from home and made friends with this motorcycle gang. They're so cool! They gave me drugs, alcohol, blaralablablablah."

Would you believe this story? I wouldn't. But he DID. And it would be nice if he'd just, "OMG that's horrible, let me pray for your lost soul, let me tune on the music...".

But he gossiped with other teachers instead (after 'praying' for me, of course.) and somehow these self-righteous teachers just leered at me cynically (they always did that, but that time they decided to add a special feature on their faces: a mocking grin.) and say things like, "No wonder she got that attitude. What a broken home she has!" loudly to each other every time I entered their room. 'Yeah right' & eye rolling happened again.

I didn't bother to correct them though, why should I? Wouldn't change anything anyway. But since I know this Student's Counselor is a big mouthed hypocrite, I'd just say nice things about the other teachers to him. I call this: Hidden-Ass-Kissing-Attempt. And guess what, it worked like charm. Those teachers were becoming nicer to me, I graduated, end of story.

Back to the Student's Counselor. My point is: We're all human after all. We talk about each other frequently, especially if it's bad news, because -whether you admit it or not- it's our human nature to feel superior (or a tiny bit excited to make it less cruel) when we see our life is better than someone else's.

But he's a Student's Counselor for God's sake!!! THIS IS HIS PROFESSION, his job is to: listen to his students' problems, make them feel better (maybe with those prayers and music all right) and most importantly: TO KEEP THEIR SECRET SHUT, am I right??

He doesn't even genuinely CARE about me. If he does, the most important thing he'd do after listening to such a horrible story about his student's life is to give me some life wisdom perhaps, or a sincere sympathy at the very least (hey, I could tell which one is sincere or not, and his was definitely not). And maybe later he could call my parents (separately perhaps, since I've told him they're in a big quarrel etc), ask them what was exactly going on, maybe pray & calm them down, offer some solutions perhaps.. NOT JUST PRETEND TO PRAY AND GOSSIPS AFTER. "Hands that help are holier than lips that pray" anyway.

Okay maybe if he really DID talk to my parents, I'd be in a big trouble since my parents knew nothing about that lol. But can you imagine if those were my real problems, how devastated I would feel? Feel so lucky I made the right decision to LIE and did not trust this man!

Now all this Student's Counselor did was pray to God, asking me to repent. Note that he's a soft spoken man who has this tidy, neat look. Hell if he wasn't married and have children as well, I thought he was gay (the femme one)! But from what I saw, he didn't reflect the goodness in his religion much. Except for the praying part, perhaps. I don't care if he spread it (the gossips) innocently, accidentally, or whatever, but I dare say: This Student's Counselor is an EPIC FAIL as a counselor and as a representative of his religion as well.

So before you put your God as your middle name, ask someone to pray, go to some religious places, surrender to some Gods and REPENT, please make sure you've done some self-reflection first. If you've done that and feel holy enough, then go ahead and save some lost souls. God speed!

@ 7:18 PM

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